An Unsent Letter to Someone…
To you…
I know you’d be surprised to read this letter. I am banking that my riendship coupons with you will save me from your damnation after reading through this.
Let me start by saying that you will always be a dear friend to me no matter what.
I think that for the last months we have shared a
certain kind of bond more than a superficial friendship requires. If only for
that, it is sad to spoil everything. But I will do you and myself greater
injustice if I kept my heart out of sight forever. I am not greatly acquainted
with opening my heart to someone, or skilled at saying and phrasing things
nicely, or adept at recognizing the perfect timing. Maybe I shall charge them to experience later.
I do have this to say: I like you very much. It
transcends friendship. It surges forth when giddiness subsides and when mere infatuation ebbs.
In the world’s parlance, I am falling in love with you. When
I look for reasons, I can come up with a myriad of them, from the most trivial to the profound. You are a great person, outside and inside. But mostly I like you for your character and a lot of things you stand for.
The rest of my feelings can no longer be explained so I am beginning to conclude that maybe, love goes beyond logic. I do feel happy and blissful spending time with you and exchanging trivial and deep things with you. And I don’t want it to ever end.
I hope this is not scary for you as it is for me. I know, suddenly I got so serious and you do not know me like that. That is why it is easier for me to write it. Somehow, I suspect that you know my feelings for you. I know this is such a cowardly way of expressing it but I feel that it is the best for me. I am afraid that I might get so darned serious and you may laugh at me, and I would not know how to react. Worst of all, I may not be able
to say anything at all due to panic. If this does not suit you, I hope you will
forgive me and consider this an unwise move from somebody uninitiated.
Estimating how you know me, I think you’ll laugh. I’m even smiling now that I’ve written the serious part. I guess I’m attempting to bring whatever I feel for you into another dimension. And whatever will become of it, I want you to know that I will always be that somebody who will be there for you when you need a pair of ears, a clown, a drinking buddy … or just another person
to be next to you when you don’t want to be alone.
I love you, my friend…..
From Me…
11/2/2008
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