Thinking of you over a cup of coffee…
* To you my partner in crime….
Can happiness be all so true,
For a heart that has loved and lost?
Or to rise with the winds of a rainbow sky
And worship the moon and the stars?
As myriads of soft gentle raindrops fell through the thatched ends
Here I am ensconced on a solitary chair
Lavishing in the comfort of my sacred sanctuary
With my bed unfixed, clutter everywhere
As I listen to the throbbing of my heart
While I savor the taste of my own cup of coffee
With every sip though, I am falling into you
Flooding my mind with unremembered thoughts
In a time and space unbeknownst to us
You are that lone star that shines brightly in my own universe
Yet I cannot reach you
You are there in my heart like a treasure …
Yet I cannot own you …
It’s your heart that cannot be mine…
I do love you
In a way I never expected I could possibly do
But why is it that I cannot find in your eyes
Sparks that say, somehow, you do love and care for me too…
Maybe I am blind not to see it
or too preoccupied by fear …
Fear that someday …
In the vastness of the night …
You will be gone … out of my sight …
out of my reach … out of my life …
I really hate to lose you
The very idea frightens me
For to think of a life without you
Is to think a life of emptiness
A world of abandoned splendor and of broken promises
It is only in my self-created world that together we stay
There I find comfort, there lies no fear
But then again I will fly above the sky of suffering,
In this black universe of pain
If that’s what it takes to prove to the world
How I love you next to forever.
And so, here I am imprisoned into the labyrinth of pixilated dreams
Engulfed in a sea of bittersweet memories
Of you being there, and I spending time with you
And even though memories may fade
As days pass through the night
You will always be that someone I will cherish till eternity
For I know that I will never meet …
That I will never find …
That I will never have …
Another you in this lifetime
So how can I forget you?
It is not for me to say,
For my forever will always be you
And you will always be within my heart till forever…
(Written while nursing my hangover over a cup of coffee after one hell of a of a drinking session on a Christmas night - 12/26/08, 6:49 am)
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